Thursday, June 2, 2016

Major Wilder Dwight: December 29, 1861

Camp Hicks, Near Frederick, December 29, 1861,
Sunday Evening.

We are drinking the lees of the old year! It is the penitent reminiscent season. We may look back along the furrow that our little individual ploughshare seems to us to be making. Few of us, indeed, can see that the past retains the mark of our labor. All of us, however, can whip up our teams on New Year's morning, and open a new furrow in a new field, or plough the same ground over again, with new zeal.

Such is the illusion of hope, and so glad are we to postpone repentance another year. And, indeed, this bright Sunday morning wins one hopeward.

Since Christmas morning I have been busy with our Examining Board. The work is amusing; but it is also pitiable to see what ignorance and incapacity are to be weeded out of the army.

Yesterday we had a visit in camp from Mr. and Mrs. –––. You recollect charming Miss –––. Well, she shone like a star upon our darkness. Her presence in my tent, which she honored, has left a sort of halo which cheers it still. The first glimpse of womanhood and loveliness I have had for an age, as it seems. The past is so crowded that it seems very distant.

The Drainsville “affair” turns out, in the magnitude of its consequences, a battle and a defeat.

"Io Triumphe”!! McClellan promises Porter's division an occasion, shortly, to show by fighting, as well as in reviews, that they are soldiers. This by his Christmas order. Who knows but my house which I begin to build to-morrow will stand rather as a monument than as a dwelling?

I must say I think the tonic of victory would be of most happy and invigorating influence. Give me a little of the “ecstasy of strife.” Bother this constant rehearsal.

–––has caught the cavalry complaint, and is off for a captaincy. So we go. The Second radiates its good influence, and every new enterprise borrows our light.

If we could only have the baptism of battle, perhaps these young men would not be in such haste to leave. Good by, and a Happy New Year to all at home.

SOURCE: Elizabeth Amelia Dwight, Editor, Life and Letters of Wilder Dwight: Lieut.-Col. Second Mass. Inf. Vols., p. 182-3

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