Rienzi. This was another day of idle waiting; most of
the boys slept in tents last night, and it was supposed we would have to stay
here. I went out foraging in the morning.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 4
Rienzi. This was another day of idle waiting; most of
the boys slept in tents last night, and it was supposed we would have to stay
here. I went out foraging in the morning.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 4
Rienzi. I answered the summons of the reveille, but I
did not feel very well; had an attack of the ague but got over it by dinner.
Nothing to break the monotony of camp life. Reinforced by one regiment of
infantry.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 4-5
Rienzi. Spent the morning as usual in suspense of
leaving, but finally the orders came to send all the baggage train to Clear
Creek, a distance of ten miles to the west, and that we were to be stationed as
an out-post. Detailed to go a-foraging, brought in two loads of corn from the
south. The 1st Section were ordered out to the front. Had the first rain storm
in the evening, and ere the morning I had a regular old shake of the ague.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 5
Rienzi. The 3rd Section, Lieutenant Hood, went out in
front and the first fell back to its old grounds. Foraging party brought in two
loads of corn, three neat cattle, one sheep, twelve geese, seven hens, two or
three bushels of sweet potatoes.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 5
Rienzi. Was begun with another of the "strategic
moves". We were told to hitch up with the greatest speed—all our baggage,
knapsacks, etc. were put in a wagon, nothing was left to encumber us from a rapid
and a desperate fight [in] which we were expected to share. The 3d Section, two
regiments of infantry, one of cavalry, started at 3 A. M. But all rumors of the
enemy's presence proved false, and after lying in the shade, horses hitched,
for an hour, we returned, unharnessed and lay quiet all day. The 3rd Section
returned at 4 P. M. without seeing any enemy.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 5
Rienzi. To-day we began business in the old way. We
had to sweep up for the first time in a week. I stood guard for the second
time.
SOURCE: Jenkin Lloyd
Jones, An Artilleryman's Diary, p. 5
*A something
whispers to me that if this should ever be read by housekeeper, it may call up
unpleasant reminiscences of "ironing days." I hope not.
SOURCE: Alfred L.
Castleman, The Army of the Potomac. Behind the Scenes. A Diary of
Unwritten History; From the Organization of the Army, by General George B.
McClellan, to the close of the Campaign in Virginia about the First Day
January, 1863, p. 37
(I shall not, in
this book, feel obliged to give the proceedings.and doings of every day. Whilst
in camp, sometimes for whole weeks, one day was so like the others that to
state the occurrences of each would be but a repetition of words. As most of
this fall and winter were spent in one place-Camp Griffin-I shall refer only
occasionally to occurrences or events, without feeling the necessity of
confining myself accurately to dates.)
During the past week
I have been much shocked by the growing tendency to drunkenness amongst the
officers of the army. I do not doubt but that if the soldiers could procure
spirituous liquors, they would follow the example set them by their much loved
officers.
I have been som[e]what
amused for a few days by the antics of an officer of high rank, who has been
shut up by sickness in his tent, and under my supervision. He entered the army
about the time I did, and had for some time been a much esteemed member in good
standing of the Good Templars. He had been from camp a few days—I think to
Washington—and returned sick. He had been with me but a short time when his
vivid imagination began to convert the stains on his tent into "all manner
of artistic beauties— figures of beasts and men, and of women walking on the
walls of his tent, feet upwards." Fie, fie! Colonel; if I did not know
that you were a Good Templar and a married man, I should think such fancies
were unbecoming. 'Tis a good thing to be a Templar and a married man, but still
"All is not gold that glitters."
SOURCE: Alfred L.
Castleman, The Army of the Potomac. Behind the Scenes. A Diary of
Unwritten History; From the Organization of the Army, by General George B.
McClellan, to the close of the Campaign in Virginia about the First Day
January, 1863, p. 38
[Franklin, N. H., October 1850]
I concur, gentlemen,
in all the political principles contained in the resolutions, a copy of which
has been sent to me; and I stand pledged to support those principles, publicly
and privately, now and always, to the full extent of my influence, and by the
exertion of every faculty which I possess.
Two of these
resolutions were as follows:
Resolved, That we cordially approve of the recent measures of Congress for the
adjustment of the dangerous questions arising out of the acquisition of
territory under the treaty of Mexico, &c.
Resolved, That the Fugitive-slave Bill is in accordance with the express
stipulations of the Constitution of the United States; . . . and that Congress,
in passing a law which should be efficient for carrying out the stipulations,
&c., acted in full accordance with the letter and spirit of that
instrument; and that we will sustain this law and the execution of it by all
lawful means.
SOURCE: Mary Tyler
Peabody Mann, Life of Horace Mann, p. 340-1
MY DEAR SIR, —I am
glad to hear from you, and that you think of putting on the harness again. I
guess the "old clock-work" will go well yet. Whatever I can do for
you, I shall do with great alacrity. I doubt the expediency of establishing another
Normal school yet a while in Massachusetts. Those already in existence must be
filled and crowded before another will prosper. I do not know what sphere you
intend to fill: the one you talked of with A would open a noble field for
usefulness, though I should struggle against all secondary causes that should
threaten to remove you from Massachusetts.
My journey to
Washington was in some respects pleasant. I was greeted all along the way by
many persons known and unknown to me; and, on arriving here, I found the
controversy between myself and Mr. Webster had really assumed a national
notoriety and conspicuousness. Whigs and Democrats had a common exultation,
though it was probably more for his defeat than for my victory. . . .
SOURCE: Mary Tyler
Peabody Mann, Life of Horace Mann, p. 341
WASHINGTON, Dec. 22, 1850.
MY DEAR DOWNER, I see by the date of my letter that it is Forefathers' Day; and I cannot but ask myself what the stern old Puritans would say, were they here to witness the degeneracy of their sons. Evil days have surely come upon us. There is a very considerable number here, it is true, who are still faithful to their principles; but they are embarrassed and oppressed with the palpable fact before them that they are in the hands of the Philistines, and that nothing can be done in behalf of the measures they have so steadfastly and earnestly contended for. The Administration has placed itself on open, avowed, proslavery ground. They will be proscriptive of enemies, and bountiful to friends; and I fear that what Mr. Webster once said will prove true,—that he had never known an Administration to set its heart upon any measure which it did not accomplish. There will be a giving-way somewhere; and all effective opposition will be frightened away or bought up.
But to what a pass
has Northern recreancy brought us! You see the list of conditions which the
South are everywhere laying down, upon compliance with which, in every item,
the Union can alone be preserved, no abolition of slavery in the District of
Columbia; no imposition of a proviso on any Territory, — which looks to its
future acquisition, and is meant to forestall its doom; no objection to the
admission of any State, whether from Texas, New Mexico, Utah, or from any new
acquisitions, on account of the proslavery constitution, &c. And now the
Governor of Virginia, in a special message to the Legislature, has proposed the
holding of a national convention, at which the North shall appear as suppliant,
shall promise all that the South demands, and shall lie down on her belly, and
eat as much dirt as she can hold. It is said there is no end to discoveries;
and certainly there is no end to discoveries in humiliation. One would think
that even the soulless instigators of Northern Union meetings would recoil on
the brink of this abyss of degradation. But such is the progress of things;
and, however low they go, a "lower deep" still opens before them.
Even the "National Intelligencer," with all its proslavery instincts,
shudders at this pit.
What shall we do
here? I declare myself ready, for one, to do, to the utmost of my ability,
whatever may appear under the circumstances to be advisable. I find it to be
true, as I have always said, that there is no more chance of repealing or
modifying the Fugitive-slave Law than there is of making a free State out of
South Carolina. Still, my own opinion is that we ought to make a demonstration
upon it. My belief is that there never was so much need of contending against
the slave-power as now. There is far more reason for a rally now than in 1848.
Then a great prize was in imminent peril. Had Cass been made President in
consequence of a diversion of Whigs into the Free-soil ranks, it is, to my
mind, as certain as any unfulfilled event, that California would have been a
slave State, and New Mexico and Utah would have had slavery had they desired
it. This great interest was put in jeopardy by that movement; though,
fortunately, God sent us a deliverance.
But now there is no
such immediate and magnificent stake to be lost or won. We cannot lose any
thing now, because we have lost Our dangers are prospective. Cuba, Mexico,
Nicaragua, are the game now afoot. We must be prepared for the time when these
shall be the subject of contest. We must see that we have Congresses that will
stand their ground; and therefore the antislavery principle must not be
suffered to sleep. . . .
SOURCE: Mary Tyler
Peabody Mann, Life of Horace Mann, p. 341-3
DEAR MRS. MANN, I
send herewith a copy of the letter alluded to in my note to W. W. & Co. The
original I have bound with other valuable letters and autographs, and I cannot
detach it without injury.
Your husband's
memory is very dear to me. I was very early impressed by his character, and you
know how durable early impressions are. While the admonitions of the other
"committee men”—many of them able men—have faded away, the counsels he
gave nearly forty years ago in the old schoolhouse are still alive with me. And
then it was easy and natural for me, little boy as I was, to see whom my father
esteemed above all other men, although Mr. Mann was then but a young lawyer,
without any official position save that of "school-committee man." I
remember well when he was first elected to the Legislature. About that time,
the Tremont House was opened, and was the wonder of the people; and it was among
the small-talk of our neighborhood, including several young ladies, that Horace
Mann boarded there. My vivid recollection of this illustrates the adage,
"Little pitchers have great ears." I think it was after I was a few
years older that he astonished and captivated me by a most eloquent (volunteer)
defence of a prisoner in court charged with theft. These words ring in my ears
while I write: “I consider it as much my duty to defend this man as it would be
to reach out my arm to a man floating down a stream and in danger of
drowning." The prisoner was acquitted; the jury not even leaving their
seats. Even the unrelenting prosecuting attorney confessed to the effect of Mr.
Mann's argument.
Pardon me; but it is
a delight to me thus to dwell on the recollections of my boyhood, and of so
great and good a man.
SOURCE: Mary Tyler
Peabody Mann, Life of Horace Mann, p. 343-4
DEAR SIR, — I remember
you well as one of the littlest boys on one of the lowest seats in the old
schoolhouse at "Connecticut Corner," in Dedham.
I have a vivid
recollection of how my heart used to exult in hope as I saw the “little
fellows" in jacket and trousers, out of whom my imagination used to make
good and true men for the country and the world. And if you can conceive how it
must delight me to have those visions realized in a single case, then you may
compute the pleasure which I enjoy in the receipt of many, many such
remembrances as yours. Your father* was one of my best friends, and I have
great respect for his memory. I am glad you are to go among the men who make
laws, and, what is more efficacious than laws, public opinion, for the
community. Nor am I less delighted to hear, that, in your political
convictions, you are attracted towards Mr. Seward. I say attracted towards Mr.
Seward; for I do not quite agree with him on some views which I consider ultra:
and yet, in the main, he holds sound doctrines, and certainly supports them
with ability.
As to your course of
action, allow me to express the hope that you will connect yourself with
educational, charitable, and philanthropic spheres of action, rather than with
party combinations and schemes. As soon as it is understood in what direction
your taste and predilections lead you, you will find yourself placed in those
positions, or falling into them naturally, and as if by gravitation.
Two years ago, I
revised the whole system of Massachusetts common schools; and if you have any
desire to see my work, and will address our Secretary of State, asking for a
copy of my revised Tenth Report, I doubt not he will send it to you.
May I suggest to you
to purchase and read and study two volumes, just published, of Charles Sumner's
orations? You will find them full of the most noble views and inspiring
sentiments. I could wish a young man, just entering political life, to do
nothing better than to form his conduct after the high models there presented.
Excuse the haste of
this letter, written, as most of my correspondence is, in the midst of constant
interruptions; and believe me very truly yours,
* John Baker,
Sheriff of Norfolk County.
SOURCE: Mary Tyler
Peabody Mann, Life of Horace Mann, p. 344-5
At about four
o'clock this afternoon we met two of our gunboats near Napoleon, Mississippi,
who told us they had just dislodged a Rebel battery planted on the shore, and
had burned two small villages. Thinking it not safe to proceed, our fleet was
hauled inshore, a strong guard was posted and pickets stationed on shore to
prevent surprise. Most of the men threw themselves down, their arms beside
them, to rest as best they might. Some few had gone ashore and were enjoying a
social chat around their blazing camp fires, while the more restless ones were
working off the effects of the bad whisky they had imbibed during the day with
boisterous, hilarious merriment. It was half-past ten; feeling wakeful, I had
not retired, but sat on the railing of the vessel, talking over past events
with a friend from Jackson. Presently two rifle shots rang out, followed by a
volley from our pickets. Then was there hurrying to and fro. The men sprang
instinctively to arms. Officers rushed from their rooms in dishabille, the
timid crouched behind anything that offered the slightest protection. Confusion
reigned. But soon our Colonel appeared, cool and collected, calm as a summer
eve. "Steady, men, stand by your arms and wait orders." More pickets
were sent out and we patiently awaited the attack. But it did not come. It was,
probably, an attempt by some cowardly wretches to murder one or two of our
pickets and escape under cover of darkness. No one was hurt. We started soon
after daylight, convoyed by two gunboats, prepared for any emergency, and
expecting fun. One gunboat led the way, the other followed in our rear, their
bright little guns portruding from their coalblack sides. They have a jaunty,
saucy air, that seems to say: "Just knock this chip off my shoulder, if
you dare." We were all excitement for a while, eagerly scanning every tree
or log, thinking to see a puff of smoke or a "cracker's" head at
every turn. Seeing nothing for so long a time, we began to think it all a hoax,
when suddenly, as we rounded a point, running close inshore, the transport in
front of us was fired on by a concealed foe. Their fire was instantly returned,
and the saucy little gunboats rounded to and gave them a broadside of grape,
followed by shell, at short range. Our boys were quickly in line, watching with
eager eyes for Rebel heads. Fortunately not a man was injured on either vessel.
A sad accident occurred this afternoon. A young man of Company H was standing
guard at the head of the stairs. He stood on the upper step, leaning on his
gun. It slipped and the hammer struck the step below. The bullet passed through
his stomach and lodged near the spine.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 50-2
Haines Bluff, Miss. Once
more on land, and glad are we of the change. We arrived at the mouth of the
Yazoo at ten o'clock yesterday morning, six miles from Vicksburg, and, turning
upstream, came to anchor at this place, fifteen miles from its mouth, at 12 m.
We had a perilous
voyage down the river. It would seem, on looking back on the dangers through
which we were safely carried, that a power higher than man's had been exerted
in our behalf. To say nothing of the guerillas, three times were we in imminent
danger of being "blown up." Once nothing but a miracle—men called it
luck—saved us from capsizing; once we were driven on shore by a hurricane on
the only spot, so said our pilot, where we could by any possibility have
escaped being wrecked.
Part of our
division, two days in advance of us, has reported at Vicksburg. Two divisions
of the Ninth Corps are here, the other—the Third—is at Suffolk, Virginia. The
place we now occupy was lately in possession of the Rebels. It is strong by
nature, and has been made still stronger by man, but those terrible little
gunboats made it too hot for secession, and they left in haste, leaving part of
their baggage, a few horses and cattle, and even poultry, which our boys found
skulking in the bushes. Of course, they arrested the cowardly creatures and
brought them into camp.
The inhabitants have
all left, driving their stock with them, and burning what furniture they could
not carry.
The face of the
country is rough and broken, quite as much so as Maryland and Virginia. Spite
of Jeff. Davis' prohibition, I find much cotton planted in this part of
Mississippi, but it will not come to much unless Uncle Sam soon gives it in
charge of his colored children, who literally throng our camp. I wish I could
describe the beauty and grandeur of these forests, but to be appreciated they
must be seen. That which gives them their greatest charm is the long, wavy,
gray moss which hangs suspended from every limb, from the smallest sapling to
the mighty, towering oak. Wild plums and blackberries, large and luscious,
abound and are now in season. Figs will soon be ripe. Among other things, good
and bad, fleas and woodticks are in evidence.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 52-3
The sky is overcast
with clouds, a cool breeze comes from the west, which makes the temperature
delightful. I have been out berrying, and have succeeded admirably. On my way
in I found some short pieces of board, of which I have made a comfortable seat,
with a desk in front, on which I am now writing. I feel quite like an
aristocrat. In my ramble across the field I discovered a flowering vine, the
most bewitchingly beautiful thing I ever saw. I searched in vain for seed
sufficiently matured to germinate. I wish I could describe its matchless
beauty, but words are feeble.
We are still lying
here waiting for Johnson, of course, to come to us, although no one seems to
know where Johnson is—whether on the Yazoo, the Big Black or the little one. I
suspect it is not definitely known whether his "large army" is a myth
or a reality. But, doubtless, these hidden, secret, mysterious "strategic
movements" and original plans will, some time, be made apparent, and then
I, at least, will make one desperate attempt to appreciate and admire the
wisdom and energy which could see, plan and execute with such unerring
certainty and success. But Vicksburg, the center of gravity at present, is
really a very stubborn fact. I do not understand it, cannot comprehend it, but
I believe Grant will investigate it to the satisfaction of all loyal people.
All the reliable information I can get at present is brought on the wings of
the wind. This is not Grant's official report, but the report of his artillery.
Last night his cannons' sullen roar reverberated from cliff to cliff and shook
the hills. There are all sorts of rumors which it is folly to repeat, for they
are replaced by new ones every hour. I believe I will record the latest, so
here goes:
Last night Pemberton
conceived the brilliant idea of turning loose four or five hundred horses and
mules, creating a stampede among them, and, when Grant's lines open to let them
through, as certainly would be done, if he suspected nothing, why, out they
would rush, artillery, infantry and all, before the lines could close again,
and thus escape. But Grant was wide awake, fell back a mile or two to give
himself room to work, opened his lines for the horses to pass through and the
Rebels to pass in, then closed on them and had them trapped.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 53-5
Once more we are on
the wing. Yesterday morning we were ordered to be ready to march when called
on. Of course, the men do not expect to stay anywhere, but it always comes a
little tough to leave a pleasant camp just as they get comfortably settled. But
military orders are inexorable, and, in spite of regrets, we "struck
tents, slung knapsacks," and started on our winding way among the hills.
This part of the country is made up of ranges of high hills separated by
ravines down which the water has cut channels from ten to twenty feet deep. We
marched about three miles on the road leading to Vicksburg and halted on the
top of a high hill just large enough to hold our regiment. It was plowed last
spring and planted to cotton. Colonel Luce looked indignant, the company
officers grumbled, the men swore. General Welch regretted, but Major General
Parks ordered the left to rest here, and it rested. But Colonel Luce could
still do something. Ordering us in line, he said: "Men, you need not pitch
your tents in line in this open field; go where you can make yourselves most
comfortable, only be on hand when the bugle sounds." Three cheers and a
tiger for Colonel Luce. then a wild break for trees, brush; anything to shelter
us from the fierce rays of a Southern sun. We are now nine miles from Vicksburg
by the road, six miles in a direct line. We can distinctly hear musketry at
that place, which has been kept up almost incessantly the last three days. At
intervals the cannonading is terrific. Our Orderly Sergeant rode over there
yesterday, to see his brother. He says Grant's rifle pits are not more than
twenty-five rods from the Rebels, and woe to the man on either side who exposes
himself to the marksmanship of the other. As near as I can learn, matters
remain about as they were three weeks ago. Unless General Grant succeeds in
mining some of their works, thus affecting an entrance, he will be compelled to
starve them out.
We would think, in
Michigan, such land as this utterly unfit for cultivation. But the highest
hills are cultivated and planted with corn or cotton. Corn, even on the highest
hills, I have never seen excelled in growth of stalk. One would naturally
suppose that in this hilly country water of good quality would abound. Such is
not the fact. Soon as we broke ranks I started out in quest of water. I
followed a ravine about half a mile, then crossed over to another, but found
none. Blackberries being plentiful, I filled my cap and returned to camp. Some
of the boys had been more successful, and after resting a few minutes I took
another direction, for water we must have. This time I followed a ridge about
half a mile, then began to descend—down, down, I went, seemingly into the very
bowels of the earth, and when I reached the bottom found a stagnant pool of
warm, muddy water. Making a virtue of necessity, I filled my canteen, returned
to camp, made some coffee, ate my berries, with a very little hardtack, and
went to bed to dream of "limpid streams and babbling brooks."
This morning my
comrade and I arose with the early dawn and started out in search of berries,
which we found in great abundance.
A strange stillness
pervades our hitherto noisy and tumultous camp. The men are scattered in every
direction, lounging listlessly in the shade, not caring even to play cards, so
oppressive is the heat. I am sitting in the shade of a mulberry tree, Collier
lying on the ground near by; we alternately write or lounge as the mood takes
us. Most assuredly I never felt the heat in Michigan as I feel it here. Yet men
can work in this climate, and northern men, too. The Eighth and Twentieth have
been throwing up fortifications for several days.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 56-8
Haines Bluff. Yesterday,
as I was strolling through the ravines, picking berries, I came across a spring
of delicious water, cold and pure. It is about half a mile from camp, in a
lovely, romantic spot, almost shut out from the light of day by the thick
foliage of the magnolia and other evergreens which are thickly interwoven with
flowering vines. I wish I could picture the unrivaled beauty of the magnolia.
The largest I have seen is about fifty feet in height, leaves from four to six
inches in length by two in breadth in the middle, rounding each way to a point,
and are of the darkest shade of green. Its chief beauty lies in its blossoms,
which are pure white, about six inches in diameter, contrasting strongly with
its dark green leaves. It is very fragrant, filling the air with sweet perfume.
Nature is indeed prolific in this Southern clime, bestowing her gifts in the
greatest variety and profusion, both animate and inanimate, things pleasant to
look upon and grateful to the senses, and those that are repulsive and
disgusting in the extreme. Insects and reptiles, varying in size from
diminutive "chiggers," too small to be seen by the unaided eye, but
which burrows in the flesh and breeds there, to the huge alligator that can
swallow, a man at a single gulp. I have not seen an alligator yet, but some of
our men have seen him to their sorrow. Soon after our arrival some of the men
went in to bathe and wash off some of the dust of travel. They had been in the
water but a few minutes when one of their number uttered a shriek of terror and
disappeared. Two of his comrades who happened to be near by seized him and
dragged him to shore. The right arm was frightfully mangled, the flesh
literally torn from the bone by an alligator. Since that incident bathing in
the Yazoo is not indulged in.
Moccasin snakes and
other poisonous reptiles abound, and a species of beautifully-tinted, bright-eyed,
active little lizards inhabit every tree and bush, creep into and under our
blankets and scamper over us as we try to sleep. The nimble little fellows are
harmless, but quite annoying.
There has been uninterrupted
firing of small arms and artillery at Vicksburg today. We are busily engaged in
throwing up breastworks two hundred rods from here. Our regiment was detailed
for that purpose today.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 58-9
Haines Bluff, Miss. We get no news from the outside world. Not
even the New York Herald or Detroit Free Press, those blatant organs of secession,
can penetrate these lines. But the air is filled with rumors—rumors that are
true today and false tomorrow. It is said the Rebels have a battery now where
they fired on us when we came down; that they have captured all our mail and
destroyed the mail boat. Today they sank the boat in shallow water and one of
our gunboats secured the mail. All we are sure of is we are here, felling trees
and throwing up breastworks; that General Grant is still knocking for
admittance at the "Gates of Jericho." Were I to credit what I hear,
and it comes from "reliable sources," I would believe he has already
made the seventh circuit of that doomed city with his terrible ram's horn in
full blast, and now, covered with sweat and dust, has paused on a
"commanding eminence" to witness the final consummation of his plans.
But the continuous thundering of his artillery and the occasional rattle of
musketry convince me that, in these latter days, the tumbling down of
formidable walls is not so easily accomplished as in the olden times when the
Almighty seemed to take more interest in the affairs of men. But, although the
long-wished for event is delayed until hope is well-nigh dead, still, seeing
and knowing what I do, I have entire confidence in Grant's final success.
But hark! What cry
is this? Oh, joyful sound. The mail! the mail has come!
Thank God, there is one
for me!
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 60-1
A letter from home—the
first since April 25th, and written by my beloved wife. On receiving it I
sought my tent with eager haste and perused its welcome pages over and over
again. Well may my darling say, "God has been better to me than my
fears," for we have been spared to each other, and our children to us
both.
I do not believe my
darling's dream was all a dream. On that same day, the 9th of June, I was on my
way from Louisville to Cairo. We went directly north to Seymour, Indiana.
Almost home, it seemed to me, where we changed cars for the southwest. I was
cast down, discouraged, more so than at any other period of my life. My
thoughts and affections were drawn out to my sorrowing wife with an intensity
that was agonizing. I had given up hope of her ever becoming reconciled to our
fate, and believed she would mourn her life away for him who would gladly have
given his own to save his wife. I felt I could do no more. Under the
circumstances was I not permitted to visit her, that my spiritual presence
might cheer, comfort and encourage her by the assurance that she was not
forsaken; that, though far away, her husband was still present, even to her
outward senses.
I believe my darling
has often visited me, and I love to cherish the fond thought. Every nerve and
fiber of my soul has thrilled with joy unspeakable at the familiar touch of her
dear hand upon my brow.
SOURCE: David Lane,
A Soldier's Diary: The Story of a Volunteer, 1862-1865, p. 61-2